Never There

where are you?
you said you will always be there
you said you will hear all the crap i say
you said you will always be around
you said you will always be with me through the highs and the lows

i put my trust in you
you give me hope

but
empty words
broken promises
darling, you were not there
and you are not here either
i'm looking everywhere
no, no, you're not there
you have forgotten
and thats okay

i know its not even real from the first place
you said it all, you broke it all
i'm a mess and i'm used to that
but i'll be fine

do not apologize
i'm the one who should thank you
you were the one who put hopes in my head
or should i call it 'dreams'?
because it never came to reality, anyway
but it made my day when you said like you meant it

...

yes, you were never there
you were too far away when i needed you the most
probably didnt even care
no surprise, who knows
and it's alright
i'm not gonna cry
i'm okay
and unlike you, i mean every word i say :)